Freshman year, I came to school thinking I would do pre-med. And then after taking the first Gen Chem class, I took a step back, reconsidered and decided that maybe business would be my future. So then I took Econ, hated it and switched back to pre-med. I went on a medical trip to Panama over the…
Holy crap, Susie. I have been going through the exact same deliberation. I wish I had the drive to get through my pre-med courses and get into med school. But it’s incredibly frustrating and unfulfilling at the moment. In comparison, I love learning about sociology, anthropology, literature, and communication on my own in my free time. I wish I could get my bachelor’s in one of these fields but it’s a little late at this point if I want to graduate in 4 years. My current plan is to get a Bachelor of Arts in Biology and a Bachelor of Arts in East Asian Studies, but I’m not even sure what I’d do with those degrees. I honestly hate doing research and writing scientific literature right now. I wish I could be doing something that employs a more creative mindset.
But then there’s the idea of disappointing others by venturing off into a different field. If only life were so easy that we could forget about being judged by others. In this day and age though, bachelor’s degrees aren’t as important anymore. Even so, I can’t help but feel as though people are whispering about my indecisiveness, about how I’m 20 years old and still have no idea what I want to do with my life. Do I sacrifice the time and mental stability to pursue a career in medicine where I’ll be taken seriously? Or do I disregard the watchful eyes of my loved ones and get a degree in a lower-paying field where I’m happier? Life is becoming way too serious way too fast.
